Lately I've been thinking a lot about a particular someone who has been abusive for a very long time; unfortunately she happens to be a blood relative, complicating matters.
The biggest complication has been that my father has insisted that I be the one to go the extra mile - and I have. Repeatedly. What Dad doesn't seem to understand is that I can DO an extra mile or two; but dealing with Sammi is more like running back to back marathons. Another complication is that Sammi seems to revel in being difficult; she is the type of person who digs & digs until she finally hits a chord, & then she laughs at the weakness of her victim.
She laughs while others cry, & she mocks their honest feelings.To me, that's just out & out cruelty that I cannot understand.
|This is not her, but the look on this kid's mug illustrates Sammi's attitude.|
It's been a lifetime of dealing with her moods & prejudices.
I am just... tired.
Tired of being attacked, abused, & mocked.
|Sammi was a sourpuss from the day she was born, & she hasn't sweetened any with age.|
Tired of trying & failing.
Tired of getting beaten up & denigrated & humiliated.
I am tired of Sammi. Period.
|If Sammi had cute whiskers like this, maybe she wouldn't be so hard to take. Probably not though.|
But I am especially tired of disappointing my Dad; I've let him down by not being able to win her over. I wish he could understand how hard I have tried, but I just don't think I can do any more.
|Sammi has taken 'resting bitchface' to a permanent life condition.|
She is a difficult person all around & she NEVER makes anything easy, much less pleasant.
So, when is it okay to tell a relative that they have outlived their welcome in your life ?*Sammi was convicted for repeatedly making threats & assaulting a young girl in our hometown because she "didn't like that girl's face" (as if that were a perfectly valid reason). After the 1st assault conviction, she was smart enough to stop attacking the girl herself, instead recruiting her friends to torment the girl on her behalf. 30 years hasn't changed Sammi's disposition much either.